sweet sadness of accomplishment

yup. all things come to an end at one point. it is a funny feeling, when it's over, if you put that much struggle into acomplishing an assignment. one feels empty and satisfied in hte same time. but to make the situation even more dramatic it is weekend and all my friends here have somewhere to go. on the other hand, even if they stayed, i wouldn't have got time for them, since i have a visit from Stockholm coming today and a photo shooting tomorrow. then it is sunday, probably spent in a Blue Lagoon to relax and let go of all the excitement, following it is monday, when i will start developping a concept for my final collection. and the circle turnes once more. but still, i am feeling a bit sad. like a sweet sadness of accomplishment. it was good, today. my first collection made. i was told that i did a great job and that i had made a really good collection. there were some pieces that could easily be perceived as new classic. some have fully futuristic view, some are just plain commercial. so i covered it all. so they said.
of course there was some critique, but not on the collection. the presentation again. well, this time i wasn't spending time on philosophy at all, just the visualisation was so powerful it took attention from the collection. i am constantly doing it. if not with philosophy, then vith the graphic. as if i were affraid they might seen the mistakes in the collection. and there weren't any. it was my fear. the last remained bit of it. the self assurance in the stuff i do. and i know, this will fall as well, as has everything here. oh my god, i am so excited. i am becoming someone different. free. i can sense it, the freedom, flowing through my body. mmmm, it is so beautiful when everything is so bright as it is with eyes freed from the fog in the mind. i can still hear the hammer thomping on a statue i once was. the plaster lies on the floor and i see white footsteps leading out through the door into the light. i am still near but moving along, moving forward. so here it is to you, my sweet sadness, remind me of the man i was before, so i will never turn back again