entering.....

i was put into a group of people i don't know.
i was thrown into the lion cage i never imagined.
i was faced with insecurities i didn't know existed.
i was challenged on every level of expressing my thought.
i was silenced by my own discomfort.
i was closed in in an open discussion.

and that only happened in first 3 minutes. then i just simply opened my mouth, even if i knew i was blushing, but i did it anyways. i had to. i needed to. it was for my own growing. so it started.

we are a group now, people from different departments of art. designers, graphic designers, painters, musicians and above us all, there is this assignment. not so assignment, but a list of ten commandments, creative people put together. the discussion started. at first there were just those awkward sayings, false laughing and noticing eachother.
but in amidst all of this, there was a moment when the energy just flew and the current emerged. we suddenly started to go into the subject that rised up spontaneously.
so we asked our selves:
how are we? who are we? do we have anything to say? what is our statement? do we even need it? are we inspiring people? or just judge them? should we even be in a position to judge?
so many questions appeared and there are more to come. but it is only a start. for these three weeks, i am going to spend with those people. when it will be over. only the project will stand there. alone. containing all the thougths we were saying, smiles, laughter and angry debates. all we touched, smelled, provoked and awoked..it will be imprinted into that last "thing" we do.

what will it be?


it was only our first day, so how can i know, if all we have are the moments we are in now.